you thought it was challenging

two years ago

when everything came to a stop

you felt sorry, but even that couldn't change anything

he showed up at your doorstep, and you were terrified, flustered, confused

you didn't know how you could brave the world; it seemed to be everywhere

so you ran away.

you thought it was challenging

one year ago

when you did it again

couldn't really live with yourself this time

so sick of explaining, so sick of facing

everyone.

the only thing you could do was escape from it all, so you did it

you ran away

you thought it was challenging

a few months ago

when all of a sudden, you really were tested

you weren't sure if you really meant what you said

but you braved it, you stared past, past at the blank wall behind them

singing to no one, just get it over with.

and then. run away

but no.

None of that was challenge.

Because challenge is when all of those things already happened.

Challenge is when you think it's all over.

    and then all of a sudden,

         it's not.

Challenge is when you think you've finally mastered it, conquered it - now, now, surely you can do it!  And then you realize that you can't.  No, you can't...you don't even want to.

but 

Challenge is when

running away

isn't an option anymore.

.

.

.

Challenge is when we grow the most.

When we realize, we really can't.  We can't...

   

      but He can.